I'm so unimpressed with myself. i read this book a while back called "the personality surgeon". it was really interesting, written like a novel, but based on actual characters i think. the idea was that this man would film interviews with people and then doctor the films to show the persons best features, or to make the person see themselves the way others do. it changed peoples' confidence, making them alter slightly, in a way that made them more likeable. i never questioned the ethics before, but that sum-up makes it sound awful.
anyways, i'd like that. I'm so terribly awkward.

recent experience

I'm not sure i understand myself nearly as well as i thought. lately i realized that i am very foolish. i know you know. I somehow overlooked a situation/person who has amazing value, and i can't figure out why. it's like i was literally blind. literally.